The following was from a post I made on Facebook at 1:00 a.m. this morning:
“So this is what autism looks like after midnight. Allergies are off the chain. Migraines combined with sensory overload. He’s been chewing the shit out of his lip and his back is bleeding from scratching so much. Cade is pissed off and he wants me to know how fucked up this life is. Therefore, I’m running around the house to get away from him so that he can calm down. He won’t hit anyone other than me. He’s broken glass frames throughout the house. There’s glass everywhere. There’s blood splashed all over the furniture, ceiling and walls. He cut his hand and when he tries to hit me the blood goes wherever it may. Not to mention he shredded the shirt that I was wearing and I looked pretty damn good in that shirt. Although I feel myself losing faith when shit like this happens I refuse to give up. Nothing hurts more than knowing your child is hurting and there doesn’t seem to be a fucking thing that you can do about it. Sorry about the profanity but fuck, fuck, fuckity, fuck. I’ve got him in the tub now and gave him a migraine pain pill. Soon he’ll be rested and in a few hours we’ll move on like nothing ever happened. I love you guys. Just know that if things are messed up and you feel like your life sucks, be assured you are not alone. Let’s make the best of this thing together. After all, misery loves company.”
“Julee took Cade to Urgent Care for his allergies today. He’s now playing with his Batman and Superman toys and I’m loving it.
Having a child with disabilities, you quickly learn the power of forgiveness. Holding a grudge is a sign of weakness. If that’s who you are then this life will destroy you. It takes strength to deal with this on a regular basis and it takes strength to forgive. We all have our burdens to bear yet we all have the power to forgive. Thanks to everyone for your outpouring of love and compassion. You guys rock!”